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30 Day Letter Meme - Day 1.

Because it keeps me writing, I’ll do this 30 day letter meme too.

Day 1 – Your Best Friend

Dear Best Friends,

Thank you for holding me up, supporting me and cheering me on through the hard times of the last two years. I could have never gotten through in one piece without you. Thank you for the phone calls, for the bachelorette, for the spa nights, for the trips to Montreal, for making me dinner, for being there as a part of my family when my mother died. Thank you for making me laugh, encouraging me to create, letting me know I’m never alone. Thank you for filling some of the holes that I have inside me from all of the fights and losses. Thank you for holding my hand when I walked away from bad situations. Thank you for understanding my intentions when I did something out of character.

Thank you for getting me through. You guys are my everything.

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Hey everyone.

Last night, while Tracy and my uncles were on their way here, Mum passed away. Tracy and I are numb. This will change with time.

The obituary:
Sutherland, Patricia (nee Mann)

It is with great sadness that we announce the passing of Patricia Melanie Sutherland on Friday, April 9, 2010. Beloved wife of the late Robert Sutherland. Loving mother to Tracy Sutherland, Heather Sutherland (Patrick), Shawn Sutherland (Liza), Micheal Sutherland, Kimberly Sutherland-Crossman (Todd). Devoted grandmother to Ryan, Christopher, Samantha, Keara, Nicolas, Andrew, Spencer, Charlotte and great grandmother to Parker. Aunt to David, Lindsay, Erin, Michael and Jennifer. Patricia is survived by her brothers, William Mann and Wally Mann. She will be lovingly remembered by the friends that she has made throughout her life that became family to her. Pat was a lifelong nurse, having served with the Royal Canadian Airforce and then working in the OR at the Ottawa Civic Hospital. She was an active participant in the Ottawa 5-pin bowling community with a great love of all crafts, especially stained glass and glass fusing. Visitations will be held Monday at 2-4pm and 7-9pm, at Kelly's Funeral Home on St. Joseph blvd in Orleans. The Funeral Service to be held on Tuesday at 1pm at Kelly's as well. The family asks that in lieu of flowers that donations be made in Pat's name at the Canadian Cancer Society.
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I'm so sore today.

For those of you who don't yet know, I was in a serious car crash yesterday. I was coming home from my hair trial (which, btw, I didn't like) when I was hit by white-out conditions. I mean, I couldn't even see the road. I managed to make it off the highway. On Bankfield, my car lost traction and I managed to keep it from going into oncoming traffic. Unfortunately, that meant directing it towards the side of the road. I hit the dirt and the car rolled twice.

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The car, while not destroyed, is a write-off. I thought it was actually worse than it is, but it's always hard to tell with it upside down and in the ditch.

Goals and Eczema

One of my major goals this year was to try changing my beauty and body products over to organic products. Where did this come from? I'd love to claim that I am so very concerned about our planet, or that it's a move to support local products. While both of these things are factors, they are not the reasons I made this decision.

Since birth, I've suffered from eczema. It's severity changes over time, like a rollercoaster, getting better and almost completely disappearing to life-alteringly bad. It was at it's worse when I was going through puberty. It was never as bad as I've heard it can be. People die of eczema in third world countries. For me, it was more of a social thing. Let me paint you a picture.

When I was 15, I was just starting to develop. I had very frizzy long hair, braces, headgear, I was chubby, I had never had a boyfriend or even been kissed. I was unpopular and very awkward. On top of all of this, my eczema was at it's worst. I was called "Crocodile" by my classmates because of my scaly and peeling skin. I had patches all over my body, but most notably, my face. I couldn't go swimming because the chlorine would aggravate things and make it worse. I had to be very careful about what products I used for the same reason.

Since then, I've adapted and for the most part, it's manageable. I generally only get spots around my mouth, on my ears, my arms and my hips. I still can't swim for very long, or go in salt water. I have to be very careful about every product that comes in contact with my skin for fear of setting off a reaction. The worst so far was after a mani-pedi appointment I had. They used a lotion on my arms that had cinnamon in it and I was so red and swollen, Pat almost took me to the ER.

Back before Christmas, I went to the Originals craft show with Mum and Tracy. There, I met a woman from Earth to Body that, somehow, was able to reach me. I've heard for years that there are a number of things that you can try to get rid of eczema, including a vegan diet, cleanses, hydocolonic treatments and UV treatments. All of these things were costly, in one way or another, and were not going to fit the lifestyle I lead. At least not long term. This woman and I were talking, and she wasn't even the slightest bit surprised at my problems, considering the products I use.

It was then and there I made my decision. For my new years goal, I would try going organic and see if it helps. Through the use of one of my favourite sites, Skin Deep, I was able to see just what I was putting on my skin.

My usual products:
-Redken All Soft Shampoo
-L'Oreal Sulfate Free Moisturizing Shampoo & Conditioner
-Aveeno Body Wash
-Aveeno Eczema Cream
-Vaseline Intensive Skin Rescue, extra strength (Cancer causing? Sweet.)
-Biosilk Hair Cream (This has carcinogens in it. Awesome)
-Herbal Essences Tousle Me Softly Cream
-"" Mousse
-La Coupe CURLS mousse.
-Secret Platinum Eastern Lily (Another carcinogen)
-Olay Complete

So, I was averaging at about 7-8 on a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being nearly harmless, 10 being Glow-in-the-dark-sign-me-up-for-cancer damaging. As you know, cancer is rampant in my family, so anything I can do to lessen my chances, the better.

Products I'm now using:
-Nature's Gate, Fragrance Free: Moisterizing lotion for sensitive skin: A really really light moisturizer. Not sure if it's going to be enough for my very dry skin. Might be good for general all-over post-bath moisturizing though. (Rated a 4)
-Beeceuticals organics: hair repair shampoo and Conditioner. So far, I really really like these products. My hair felt great and light after the shower. The scent was schmeh. A bit citrusy.
-Druide goat milk shower gel. A faint almond scent, really nice actually. Time will tell if my body will tolerate this change.
-Earth to Body "The X Cream" So far, I'm not sure if this is the cure-all I've been told it is. Worked extremely well for my sister-in-law, but for me, it takes a while to really see a change. It's a bit greasy, so definitely not for all over or hands.
-Earth to Body Emu Lip Balm. Recommended to me because most of the time, my eczema is right around my mouth. I find this really greasy, but it seems to help clear things up.
-Suncoat Products Natural Styling Mousse. Sort of a peppermint scent, will have to see if it can tame my locks.
-Earth Science Liken Plant Deodorant. My favourite deodorant ever! I've been looking for a good non-aluminum deodorant for a while, and this one is great.

So, I'm averaging now at about 3, which is a big difference. I'm really hoping I feel it. So far, being day one, I'm really happy with how my body feels. I'm not reacting to anything (which is always a risk when trying something new). It cost me about 100$ to change over to organic. Hopefully, it'll all be worth it.

Meanwhile, I'm also giving this a shot. Supposedly, the Hazelwood in the necklaces balances the acidity in the body, eliminating eczema. Worth a shot right? Right.

I'll keep you all updated on this journey :) I'm really hoping that it makes a good change in my life.

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A meme thing, from Chelle. Of course, knowing both her and Lacy is enough to make me post this, but then there's my family in which only Tracy, Sandra, Shawn and myself haven't had cancer yet, of the 8 of us.

In memory of family and friends who have lost the battle with cancer; and in support of the ones who continue to conquer it! Post this on your LJ if you know someone who has or had cancer. ♥ ♥ ♥

I think it's a very rare thing indeed to not know anyone that has been touched by cancer in this day and age.
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Thanks Neil. You too.

Because it's lovely and I truly hope this for myself and everyone I care about:

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art -- write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. May your coming year be a wondering thing in which you dream both dangerously and outrageously, and I hope that you'll make something that didn't exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), I hope that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.